MAHINA

Nagtataka ako at naguguluhan..

Ano ba ang nangyayari..

Humihina na yata ako.. o sadyang pa-laos na?

Dumating ang isang matalik na kaibigan namin galing Dubai..

Sabayan pa ng birthday ng "favorite godson" ko na anak ng bestfriend ko..

Lunch time ang usapan..nagpasabi si kaibigang galing dubai na male-late sila ng dating ng kanyang kapatid na doktora..

So napag-kasunduan namin ng papa ni Bff na simulan na namin ang tagayan..

Tanong: Anong gusto mong inumin?

Sagot: San Mig na lang, may pasok kasi bukas (usually kasi pulang kabayo ang toma namin)

Bumili ng kalahati muna...nomnom na..one on one si Papa ni BFF..bote-bote lang..gawain na namin yun..

kwentuhan..tawanan..

Naubos ang kalahati..bili uli ng kalahati..wala pa si kaibigan..

Nomnom..kwentuhan..tawanan..

Dumating na sa wakas si kaibigan galing Dubai kasama si kapatid na Doktora..

Ubos na ang San Mig lights..bili pa uli..pang isa't kalahating case na namin..kasama na si kaibigang balikbayan sa ikot. Kwentuhan. Tawanan. Kainan. Naubos na ang inumin, nagpaalam na ako, may pasok pa kasi kinabukasan.

At kinabukasan..

Ang sakit ng ulo, nahihilo, naduduwal..

buntis?

ay hindi naman siguro. Nakakabuntis na ba ang kamay? Choz!

San Mig lights lang yun, bakit ganito ang feeling ko, ang sama! Humihina na ba ako sa tomaan?

Malalaman sa mga sumusunod na araw.

ESKAPO

As usual, it was a busy day in school...Celebrating the culmination of "Buwan ng Wika", I was manning the gates, and having the eagle eyes for students trying to escape the festivities..that's my job..sorry kids..

I was also waiting for some visitors from Manila that scheduled a pictorial that will feature some of our student leaders in their magazine, while the boss inquires once in a while, the whereabouts of the students concern.

When the program ended the visitors came and apologetic for coming late and was not able to take pictures of the program. After some welcome snacks I toured them around our town's beautiful church which is only beside our school, the visitors where also scouting for a beautiful spot to take the pictures. While waiting on them, I remembered my mobile-phone in my office, excused myself to check my messages. 

6 missed calls

4 messages

all coming from my bff. Thinking that it might be serious, I immediately called her up.

Me: Ano na teh? May bisita kasi..

BFF: Daanan kita, alis tayo..

Me: Ha?! Ano ka ba, 3 hours pa bago mag-uwian..May problema ba?

BFF: Lokah! Wala..sige na daanan kita..mag-paalam ka na lang sa boss mo.

Me: Sige..sige..after an hour..mag-iisip muna ako..

Sus! Akala ko kung ako na..Anong gagawin ko? sasama o hindi?

SASAMA!!! 

tindi..demonyito lang..

patapos na naman ang araw.. at wala na akong klase..pano mga bisita? tapos na ang pictorial, kailangan na lang ng names, dali-dali akong nag-type ..print..habang tumatakbo ang utak ko sa idadahilan ko kay bosing para maka-eskapu.

Kung gagawa ng krimen, kahit madalian, kailangan malinis, walang huli..

Nang-pumasok ako sa office ni bosing para ibigay ang mga names ng mga bata na kasama sa pictorial, andun mga bisita, snacks uli. Naalala ko yung nabasa ko nung High School pa ako, kung gusto mong mag-paalam o humingi ng pera sa magulang, itaon mong busy, para oo lang ng oo sa mg sasabihin mo.Kaya ganun ginawa ko, habang busy si bosing sa pagiging good host, sinabayan ko ng paalam na may emergency lang at kailangan kong mag-undertime. Pumayag! Jackpot!

Dali-dali akong lumabas ng office, pumunta sa office ko, kinuha ang gamit, bilis-bilis tumalilis walang lingon-lingon! kahit may tumatawag, dedma! parang walang narinig.

Nakita ko na ang caru ni bff..pasok..fly! Tawa ng tawa si bff..bilis-bilis daw ako sa paglakad. Parang may pinagtataguan lang. 

Hay! Sa ngalan ng kaibigan gustong gumala..magsisinungaling at gagawin ang lahat para siya'y samahan lang!

Pak! ;D

Buhay na talaga uli ang Demonyito! Bwahahaha!

BACK FROM OBLIVION

I hope that this will be for good..

Been sick for a week and stressed out of the suspicion that it may lead to the dreaded "Dengue", I have to slow down..

I hope that you are all still there..

NANINIWALA AKO! (An Update)

Sa aking kapatid na Pongpong Pagong!


Kahit masama ang aking pakiramdam at nasa banig ng karamdaman..

MALIGAYANG PAGBATI SA IYONG PAG-PASA 

SA NURSING BOARD EXAM!!!

Sabi sa iyo..Naniniwala akong...Kayang-Kaya mo yan! pak na pak!


Isang magandang belated birthday regalo sa iyo ito ng Nasa Taas..


Inuman na! Tara! ;D

SICK

I don't feel good..


I am sick..


I hope it's not dengue..

4 THINGS..

4 Things I need to spend more time on in my life:
1. Exercise, I'm still way too far on my target weight.
2. Save some money. I have been spending like hell.
3. Eating less but not eating the right healthy food.
4. Have my house fixed and put up a fence around it.

4 Things I need to spend less time on in my life:
1. In my room.
2. Day dreaming.
3. Thinking of getting old alone.
4. In front of the computer.

4 Things I wish I could spend more time on in my life:
1. Travelling and seeing the world!
2. Demonyitong Promdi, you know I love you guys a lot!
3. My family and best friends and my dog, they are my life.
4. Reading good books.

4 Things I love about myself:
1. My ability to love.
2. My ability to listen to somebody without judging him or her.
3. My creative and humorous mind.
4. Myself! I was Born This Way baby!

4 Things I hate about myself:
1. My nose.
2. My balding head.
3. My chubby built.
4. My emotional Piscean personalty.

4 Things I love that I used to hate:
1. Teaching.
2. Reading.
3. Gay friends.
4. Lady Gaga.

4 Things I hate that I used to love:
1. Smoking.
2. Eating.
3. Gossip.
4. Twitter, I just don't have the luxury of time for it.

4 Things I look forward to:
1. Sex. Who doesn't?
2. Hanging out with friends.
3. Weekends and/or holiday.
4. Updating Demonyitong Promdi.

4 Things I dread:
1. Confrontation.
2. Rejection.
3. Senseless conversation.
4. No one will take care of me at my old age.

4 Things I once believed in but no longer do:
1. I'm bi.
2. Wife.
3. I'll win a Lotto jackpot prize.
4. I can work abroad.

4 Things I believe in that I didn't use to:
1. I could still find friends like…You!
2. Being gay is okay.
3. Exercise.
4. Taking care of my health.

4 Things I love to do but I'm bad at:
1. Writing.
2. Be silent.
3. Be modest.
4. Playing a musical instrument.

4 Things I hate to do but I'm good at:
1. Teaching.
2. Planning Events.
3. Be involve.
4. Telling lies.

4 Things I did that I'm ashamed of:
1. I’ve watched too much porn.
2. I lied a lot when I was young.
3. Not going back to work after a meeting.
4. I took advantage of drunken friends.

4 Things I did that I'm proud of:
1. Demonyitong Promdi.
2. Started losing the extra weight!
3. Teaching for 15 years.
4. Supporting my nieces.

4 Things I didn't do that I regret:
1. Don't
2. Live
3. Yourself in
4. Regret

4 Things I want before I die:
1. Kids.
2. A partner.
3. Happiness.
4. Good Life.

POSE

CAPTION THIS..

salamat sa Hay! Men! Ang blog ng mga tunay na lalaki para sa picture.. ;D

INTERCESSION

To my..

..Blog readers (if there is any) whether it’s your first to read my blog or have been regularly dropping by …

..Blog Friends (I know there are out there)..Brothers, sisters, PLU’s..

..Whatever religion you believe, whether you believe in Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, as long as you believe that there is more powerful over us..

Can I ask you a huge favor..

Can you please pray for my three students tomorrow?

They are semi-finalists, representing our province to the St. Paul’s National Bible Quiz Bee, which will be held at Silang, Cavite. This will be their first time to join such event, and have been busting their assess and minds reviewing for this. They deserve to win. I just feel it. I know it.

They need all the support they can get, and we humbly ask for your prayers.

Thank you very much and I know I can always count on you.

By the way.. did I mention I am their coach.. ;D

The semi-finalists needs your prayer...please..

LATE BLOMMER (2)

1

   For the longest time, I really wanted to work abroad. When the “Caregiver in Canada” was in its early boom here in Philippines, I was in batch 7 of a caregiver program of a known training center in Quezon City in the late ‘90’s. I was already teaching then, but for me it was just a temporary gig. Lagi kong sinasabi, ‘Di ako tatandang titser’, even my friends tell me to study more for promotion purposes, but I’ll tell them that I don’t need to study because I don’t intend to for long my stay in the education business.

   Andami ko ng application sa kung ano-anong agency, maging online man yan o may personal appearance pa ako. So far, sa awa ng Maykapal, di pa naman ako naloloko ng major-major, slight lang o muntikan. Canada, US, UK, Dubai, Hongkong at Ireland, yan ang mga bansang pinangarap kong puntahan sa pamamagitan ng paghahanap ng trabaho, at di ako namimili ng trabaho, mula sa pagiging caregiver hanggang janitor handa kong pasukan, makaalis lang sa bansa. Dahil ang prinsipyo ko, kung aalis din lang naman ako sa pagtuturo, might as well find another job. Ang inaayawan, din a binabalikan.

   Nagipon din ako ng malaking salapi, bilang panustos sa balaking ito. Pero ewan ko ba, parang nananadya ang tadhana, yung una kong application sa Canada for direct hiring ay naging ‘in positive progress’ na, nagpadala na rin ako ng placement fee sa agency na ‘yun, ng biglang kailangan na bumili ako ng lupa at magpatayo ng bahay dahil walang matitirahan ang pamilya ng bunso kong kapatid at para sa akin na rin kasi uunahan ko na ang anak-anakan ng Lolo at Lola ko na nagpalaki sa akin, bago pa ako mapalayas. Ang siste, iniatras ko ang application ko sa Canada upang makuha ang pera.

   Pikit mata, bumili ako ng lupa at nagpatayo ng bahay, paunti-unti. Loan dito, loan doon, bawal magluho. Nung matapos ng bahagya ang bahay ko at maari ng tirhan, pinalipat ko na ang kapatid ko. Five months later, ako naman ang lumipat. Dahil may natira pa akong pera sa naibalik na placement fee, bumili ako ng pampasaherong tricycle to hit two birds with one stone: unang bato, para may maghahatid sa akin sa pinapasukan ko, kasi malayo-layo rin ang bahay ko sa iskul; ikalawang bato: para may pag-kakitaan si bayaw at hindi lagging umaasa sa akin. O di ba prefect!

   Matapos akong makalipat, nagipon uli ako, para pang-gastos ko sa binabalak kong pagpunta ng dubai o macau, para magtrabaho. Nang sapat na ito, biglang nangailangan ang kapatid kong sumunod sa akin ng pera para pang placement fee nya sa pag punta sa Qatar. Ang unang plano ay mag-loan sya sa sa in-house financing ng agency nya at ako ang gagawing Guarantor ng kanyang loan. Pero naiisip ko  na kung ako ang magiging guarantor, pag hindi nakabayad si kapatid sa hulog ako din ang magbabayad. Ay nako, talo ako dun, kaya ang naisip ko, ipahiram na lang sa kanya ang naipon kong pera, at pag sweldo nya, bayaran nya ako ng walang patong. Safe pa ‘yon.

   Nakaalis si kapatid papuntang Qatar, lumipas ang isang buwan, ang isang taon, wala akong narinig sa kapatid ko o kahit sa asawa niya. Suma total, hanggang ngayon hindi pa nababayaran si pobreng Kuya, at si kapatid nakauwi na, hindi pa rin nagpapakita.

   Sa lahat ng nangyaring ito, tila may gustong ipahiwatig sa akin ang tadhana, ayaw akong paalisin sa lupang sinilangan at mabulok na lang ang angking kagandahan sa probinsyang kinasadlakan. Hahahaaayy!   

   Ano ang relevance ng pamagat na “Lateblommer” sa kwento kong ito… abangan! Choz!

LUCKY BEEYACH OF THE MONTH

She is a talented host who happens to have..

a beautiful face..

a body to die for..

a crazy but infectious laugh..

and she's uber lucky because.. 

for awhile dated..

this delicious hunk..

changed her mind for..

a more meatier hunk..

and with dramatic flair..dropped Mr. Meatier Marudo

and was swept away by sweet nothings.. 

of Mr. Bad Boy

Ikaw lang... ang kinaya ang mga bagay na yan..

YOU'RE ONE LUCKY BEEYACH!

MARIEL RODRIGUEZ

DRAGON

Magaling..


Matibay..


Malakas..


Matapang..


Lumalaban..


Kahit walang suporta sa mga ahensya ng Gobyernong di lang utak wang-wang, utak tahong pa..


Sila ang tunay na Pinoy na Dragon..


Limang Ginto..


Tatlong taong sunod-sunod..Wagi..Kampyon!

PHILIPPINE DRAGON BOAT TEAM

pak na pak!

SHE

It was my usual weekend trip to the Mall that Henry Sy built in our province ( his second actually), to pay some bills, lo and behold, who do I see..the woman that turned my world upside down. I dreaded of this day to come, to see her again. For the longest time I thought that the last conversation we had was really the end. I have to move on and not lurk onto desperation and depression. I never liked a complicated life.

But there she was, with her latest boyfriend in tow, a 9th board placer, unfortunately I'm still cuter..choz! Wait, I am going ahead of my story..

Before this dreaded day came, modesty aside, an anonymous texter was texted me, inquiring how am I, I naturally asked who was it, the texter did not reply. My students know that I don't answer anonymous text messages, so I ignored the message. Since then I was receiving messages from the same number and still ignored it. 

Then, yesterday after receiving a message greeting me on the positive outcome of my quest to thinness from this nameless texter I inquired again of his/her name. A reply came, and when I read it, there it was, her name. I guess she is trying to build the burned bridge between us. Honestly, I already erased her contact number in my phone, and never memorized it, it's my way of forgetting her totally in my fucked up mind. After seeing her name, I did not reply..but then..


She: Sana d na lang ako nagpakilala noh. Cge Ingat po lagi.

I read that reply when I was preparing to go to bed, after a few drinks of booze from a friend's party. Not to be accused of being 'ungentle-man' again, I replied with a smiley and then went to sleep. When I woke up and checked my phone, a reply from her.. a smiley too.

Then the incident on my way to the mall happened, I first saw the boyfriend (talagang yung lalaki ang una kong napasin! choz!) carrying a box, then I saw her familiar face, chubbier but still pretty, she saw me, and was in kind of shock and manage a smile, I smiled back and walked pass by them, not giving a second look. I just walked on, not looking back.

A few minutes past and a text message from her..


She: Small world huh.


Me: Indeed..


Her: :)

End of Conversation..

I hope.

believe it or not, it's her and I, during our 'happy days'

QUOTES

It is an interesting question how far men would retain their relative rank if they were divested of their clothes.

Henry David Thoreau (1817-62),

U.S. philosopher, author, naturalist. Walden, "Economy" (1854).

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LATE BLOMMER

I’M BACK MGA ATEH! And I missed you all so much! Grabeycious talaga! ;D

Dami ko lang talaga lang ginagawa, ewan ko nga ba kung bakit nagkapatong-patong ang Gawain ko sa work, parang efficient na titser lang talaga. Choz! Lesson plan dito, Iskul activities dito, doon training dito, doon, alalay ng mga baytamins sa training nila dito, doon.. buti na lang sa pag-alalay sa mga baytamins e hindi natuloy ang pag-trekking naming sa bundok na ke taas-taas, dahil sa walang humpay na pag-ulan. Tenks gudnesh!

Pero ang isang enjoy ako, e nung nautusan akong pumunta ng Divisoria. Stress reliever ko kaya ang bumili ng mga bagay-bagay, which may not necessarily mean na aking pera ang ginagasatos, kaya mas okay yun. Ang di ko lang gusto e dapat mag commute ako dahil di available ang mga caru at vanu ng mga utaw.

The day ng aking pag gora sa Divi, na late ako ng gising, kasi minsan lang mangyari yun na walang pasok sa aking iskul, kaya may I patay my alarm clock. E bukod sa Divi, I have to pass by my favorite Glorrieta to buy something na makakatulong sa aking pagpapayat.  Kaya nung magising ako, nagmamadali ang ateh mo, buti na lang di masyadong maulan nung araw na yun.

But I notice something new or different in how I look at people that day. From Magallanes I have to take the MRT on my way to Ayala and then from the station to the shop where I am supposed to buy something. To the shop I have to go back to the MRT station and ride a train to EDSA station, from there I have to buy a ticket and transfer to LRT line 1 and ride the train again to Doroteo Jose, then a jeepney to Divisoria.

With all that travel time, I noticed that I was regularly checking out men: young, middle aged, thin, buffed, cute, fahionista. Datirati naman di naman ako ganun makatingin sa mga kapwa ko lalaki. Yes I check them out, yung mga kakaiba sa tingin at panlasa ko at saglit lang yun. Yun bang di halata, masakit kayang majombag ng bonggang bongga. Pero iba na ngayun, di lang ako sight.. I was already staring as in nakababad. Nagulat lang talaga ako. When I was refelecting kung bakit ganun, naisip ko na nagsimula ang lahat ng ito nung simulan ko ang blog kong ito. I met friends and people who feel what I feel, talk the way I talk and think the way I think.  And I felt at ease.

A few months ago, I wrote an email of thanks to Mcvie, one of the most fabulous fabcasters I ever heard. When he answered my email, he opened it with ‘Ano ba BAKLA! Okay lang yun!’ honestly I was taken aback; I was not used in being called bakla, discreet chuvaness nga kasi ako mga ateh. Pamintang buo, durog, crystallized, powdered, solidified at kung anek, anek pa, AKO YUN. I do not need to defend my decision to treat my sexually this way. But reflecting on it a little more, my ‘devilish promdi soul’ somewhat made me realize that I need to reconcile my bakla soul with my manly soul. “Mag-usap kayong dalawa, sino ba talaga ang makapangyarihan ikaw na babae ang hanap o ikaw na kapwa ko mahal ko.” Until these two souls make up who’s whom, I will remain the Demonyito lurking in the stillness of the night. Choz!

A friend’s daughter turned 18 recently and all of the old friends where invited for a simple dinner and some drinks. Syempre di mawawala ang tsismis, probinsya kaya ito teh. Kung sinong wala syang topic, at napausapan ang isang konsehal ng bayan naming na kaibigan din naman naming na halata naming beki, kaya lang di umamamin. Then napunta ang usapan sa gobernador naming na dating artista na nag survey daw sa bayan naming kung ilan ang beki at sabi ng kasamahang beki nasa 300 lang daw ang nagpalista, at sa gulat ng marami bigla akong sumingit ng ganito:

Ako: ‘At yung mga paminta as of this afternoon ay 3, 400 na ang count.’
Tawanan ang lahat ng may nag-tanong:
Kaibigan sa akin: ‘Bakot mo alam?’
Ako: Kasi ako yung huling pumirma!
Tawanan uli

Bigla akong nabigla at natanong sa sarili: Nasabi ko yun? Dati rati naiinis ako sa mga ganung comment kahit di ako ang concern. I am changing.

Sabi ko nga noon, I am taking my time, baby steps with pointed toes! Ching! I am slowly accepting who I really am. I don’t need to shout to high heavens about my true sexuality or even explain myself because as far as I know I don’t owe anyone an explanation. My life, my sexuality, my preference, my soul.

And lastly, my ‘gaydar’ also seems to have leveled up. Andami kong naamoy sa mga nakakasalubong ko na, kapareho ko yata ang pabango. Choz! Lalo na nung nasa Glorietta ako, dati naman ang napapansin ko lang e yung mga effem talaga, pero ngayon kahit yung mga kalahi ko na paminta naamoy ko na, bahing nga ako ng bahing! Hihihi ;D

Nice to be back mga kumare! I hope you’re happy than I am! Choz ;D